In total I have had 8 pregnancys and not a child?

I have asked for peoples advice and appreciated it but what is the point of living? I am not a real woman. My fiance has told me so, and is not here to support me. I have prayed the Rosary, I have got on my knees to the crucifix I have. Unfortunately my fiance ripped my crucifix off my neck before he left. I know I am not perfect, who is. Can someone help me PLEASE. Niamh x